BPD Recovery and the Little Demon
Imagine for a moment that there is a big black demon within you, one that controls your mood, what you say, how you think, and for a long, long time this demon causes you to hurt those around you. You will say mean and manipulative things, you will become paranoid and suspicious of what they say and do, and worst of all, you will think you are justified. Over time this demon will subside, you will become more aware of it, it will lose its power, and as you make the effort to be better, the demon inside you dies...but it never really does, the demon only grows smaller, weaker, lying in wait within you for its moment to come back out in whatever capacity possible. You feel it itching, breathing down you; whenever you think you are safe, happy, the little demon tries to claw its way back up and make your mind whirl with thoughts. This is how it feels to recover from BPD. No one truly recovers from Borderline Personality Disorder, they can only improve. I know because I went throu