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BPD Recovery and the Little Demon

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Imagine for a moment that there is a big black demon within you, one that controls your mood, what you say, how you think, and for a long, long time this demon causes you to hurt those around you. You will say mean and manipulative things, you will become paranoid and suspicious of what they say and do, and worst of all, you will think you are justified. Over time this demon will subside, you will become more aware of it, it will lose its power, and as you make the effort to be better, the demon inside you dies...but it never really does, the demon only grows smaller, weaker, lying in wait within you for its moment to come back out in whatever capacity possible. You feel it itching, breathing down you; whenever you think you are safe, happy, the little demon tries to claw its way back up and make your mind whirl with thoughts. This is how it feels to recover from BPD. No one truly recovers from Borderline Personality Disorder, they can only improve. I know because I went throu

Most Wanted DC Multiverse Signature Series figures

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For me, the highlight of Mattel's SDCC panel concerning the DC Multiverse figures came when it was revealed that the DC Signature Series figure line (Of which the 1990s Flash and Kilmer Batman are a part of) is not strictly relegated to the older movies, but can touch upon more recent movies as well; including those from the current DC movie series that have already gotten Multiverse waves. Figures from recent movies that weren't included in the Multiverse line suddenly became a new possibility and are not completely passed upon by the line, and my mind immediately started to work on which characters I would want figures for. So going forward, this'll be my top 5 most wanted DC Multiverse Signautre Series figures, which probably some SPOILERS about the movies they come from. 5. Mark Hamill's 1990s Trickster This will be the only one on the list that really fits in with the other older wave figures like John Wesley Shipp's Flash and Linda Carter's Wonder W

Top 10 most wanted Mega Construx Sinnoh Pokemon

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Pokemon Diamond and Pearl was the fourth generation of pocket monsters to come to gamer's screens, and it was the reason that I bought a Nintendo DS as a child. It introduced a whole grouping of new creatures, many of which were new evolutionary tiers of older Pokemon. Being Pokemon, there is no doubt whatsoever that this generation will be tapped upon soon for new buildable sets; in fact, Munchlax has long been released and Weavile was shown at the recent SDCC. Without further delay, lets look into the top 10 potential buildable Pokemon I'm looking forward to seeing. 10. Croagunk Frogs have always been some of my favorite animals and a Pokemon version is no different, not to mention its likable appearances in the anime as Brock's gut-puncher. Its sly smile and cheek pouches are good design choices, and it would be a fun Pokemon to get in the line at some point. (Image Source) 9. Bidoof A Pokemon that not many seem to like, Bidoof is a bit of a joke f

Living for Now?

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Is there a word or phrase that means the opposite of writer's block? You have the ideas and are going through the motions, but the end goal is cloudy to you and you're unsure that you really want to go anywhere for what you're doing. It is kind of how I feel in life recently and in more simpler terms, it feels like I've lost ambition for the future. It is nothing to worry about, I'm not depressed, I'm not planning to not have a future of any kind...I just don't feel like I have anything to look forward to. As depressive as that sounds, I'm really not depressed. I'm happy, very happy and a lot of stuff has been going good for me this past year. I guess I could say that I'm living in the present, enjoying my days and the people I spend them with. This photo can illuminate a lot of what our culture does today, and I'm no stranger to this. The future is this looming fog on the horizon that I can't quite see into, and really don't wan