BPD and Trying to Hold Lightning in a Bottle
(Image Source) This is an article I've had the idea of for a while but never actually sat down to write. I've felt the feeling a thousand times before, but it has been a while and lately I had it again which made for the perfect refresher for me to write this article. With Borderline Personality Disorder, a lot of times, at least for me, you can feel like you're trying to hold onto lightning in a bottle. You want to grasp everything and hold it tight, never letting it slip away the slightest else you fear losing it completely. This is an awful feeling, and it's one that I dealt with constantly, and still do on a time to time basis. Worrying is the stem of this, the root that makes your mind run rampant with thoughts and "what if" situations that leave you scrambling to feel secure. In these moments, it can suddenly feel like whatever relationship you have with someone is lightning in a bottle and its on the verge of escaping. You'll try to get ass